Just want you to all know, that Class 5 is outttt and all of his charges were dropped!! I'm probably the happiest girl alive. I'll give a full update Monday, we're off on a road trip to visit his family and some friends for the weekend. I'm nervoussss to meet his parents ah! Later gators!
3/27/2009
3/19/2009
"And then the clouds opened up and God said 'I hate you Alfalfa' "
We've been together for a little over a month. I'm smitten though still scared as is my nature. I pick fights, he laughs and says that he'll see me after work. I cry, he does something amazing for me. I go crazy, he holds me until I'm calm. Too good to be true. Because then it's all taken away.
Last night he drove me to CVS to get nyquil so that I can sleep/breath at night. He forgot to turn the lights on for the car. A cop is behind us. And he is whisked away, because of charges I do not know about and it is all still complicated. I miss him so much it hurts. He doesn't know that I didn't leave the court house area for 12 hours. He doesn't know I haven't stopped crying in over 24 hours. He doesn't know that I'm wearing his shirt because it smells like him. He doesn't know I'm sleeping on the couch because my bed is too empty. He doesn't know I'm beside myself and I don't know what to do, I can't eat, I sleep very little. He doesn't know that I've fallen completely in love for him. I miss him. It hurt so much when I saw him in the court room. He didn't see me. I wish he did so that he knows I'm trying my hardest and I care. I'm glad he didn't because I lost it completely when I saw him. I can't be strong for him. I don't know how to. I called everyone I can. I pounded pavement all day. There is nothing I can do. I am alone. His parents are in Indiana. His friends are worthless. My roommate says I've done all I can, which is beyond what someone in a 1 month relationship would do. But I want a hug from the one person that can't give me one. I would give anything to just have him back. Homeless, jobless. I want him. I need him. I will not leave him out on the street. I don't care how sketchy it seems, how little time it's been. I wish I could not care. Say that one month is not worth it. But even if he was just a friend I would be doing the same thing. I love him. I miss him. Please, God, Please.
I have been bad at updating this because we've been spending so much time together. Now he is gone and I don't think I can update for awhile. I need him back. I need the next time I write to be good news. I need him to be looking over my shoulder, smiling about all the good things I tell you. I'll let you know when that happens. Until then, keep pulling those petals trying to get your way.
Last night he drove me to CVS to get nyquil so that I can sleep/breath at night. He forgot to turn the lights on for the car. A cop is behind us. And he is whisked away, because of charges I do not know about and it is all still complicated. I miss him so much it hurts. He doesn't know that I didn't leave the court house area for 12 hours. He doesn't know I haven't stopped crying in over 24 hours. He doesn't know that I'm wearing his shirt because it smells like him. He doesn't know I'm sleeping on the couch because my bed is too empty. He doesn't know I'm beside myself and I don't know what to do, I can't eat, I sleep very little. He doesn't know that I've fallen completely in love for him. I miss him. It hurt so much when I saw him in the court room. He didn't see me. I wish he did so that he knows I'm trying my hardest and I care. I'm glad he didn't because I lost it completely when I saw him. I can't be strong for him. I don't know how to. I called everyone I can. I pounded pavement all day. There is nothing I can do. I am alone. His parents are in Indiana. His friends are worthless. My roommate says I've done all I can, which is beyond what someone in a 1 month relationship would do. But I want a hug from the one person that can't give me one. I would give anything to just have him back. Homeless, jobless. I want him. I need him. I will not leave him out on the street. I don't care how sketchy it seems, how little time it's been. I wish I could not care. Say that one month is not worth it. But even if he was just a friend I would be doing the same thing. I love him. I miss him. Please, God, Please.
I have been bad at updating this because we've been spending so much time together. Now he is gone and I don't think I can update for awhile. I need him back. I need the next time I write to be good news. I need him to be looking over my shoulder, smiling about all the good things I tell you. I'll let you know when that happens. Until then, keep pulling those petals trying to get your way.
3/16/2009
He loves me...finallyyyyyy
Okay, here's the gossip.
1. I went on more date with other guys while still seeing the Class 5 clinger. All of them awkward and I was a terrible person and would call him afterwards to just cuddle. The more I learned about him and got to know him...I started to really like him. However, after all the SHIT I've been through with guys I was too scared to actually make it official. About 3 weeks into it though I realized I either had to end it or make it official. I made it official. He's now sitting next to me on the couch as I write this (He can't read it hahaha). HeLovesMeNot is offically NOT single. I didn't think this would happen, at least not this soon.
2. 3 days after making it official guess who I hear from???? THE BRIT. I CAN'T believe it. Only took him 5 freakin' months. But I finally have closure, I can let go and put him out of my mind. He said some pretty mean things like implying that he was angry at me for some reason but never alluded to the reason, but then also pulled at some heart strings by saying that he misses me and thinks about me a lot. I cried I'm not gonna lie. But like I said, I have closure. It's finally done and over with and I made the executive decision to cease all further contact with him because I deserve better than that and I finally have it.
3a. Okay...so some juice on THE ENEMY. I recently found out that even though The Teacher has no interest in her, he proceeded to hook up with her whilst incredibly intoxicated, thus furthering his asshole-ness. I actually feel bad for her because she really does like him and that really messed with her head...well I at least think so...I don't actually speak to her. So yeah, I feel sorry for her and hate him even more.
3b. This next story also includes her. So Friday night while hanging with the roomie, my bf (weirdddd) and roomies sister, I get a text from my Best Friend, that she found out I'm on the dating website. They found out because it turns out IRISH didn't meet THE ENEMY through a friend, but ON THE WEBSITE. WE GOT SET UP WITH THE SAME GUY! AND he LIED to me. I was SO pissed at him. AND I was incredibly embarassed that everyone knew about me being on it and it didn't help that the Teacher and his friend kept texting me about it. His friend (whom I know and am kinda friends with) was being nice about it and wanted to go egg her car with me. But the Teacher was being a total ass...espcially since I haven't talked to him since we hooked and I had to get my earrings back through my Best Friends guy. I didn't reply to the Teacher, and I told Irish he was an asshole and he should never talk to me again (okay okay, I didn't STOP talking to him even though I am dating someone...). Irish ended up unfriending myself and The ENEMY on facebook. How LAME. I thought at 26 and 28 (Irish and the The Teacher) guys were supposed to be more adult. Apparently not.
But none of that matters now, Class 5 Clinger is actually a really sweet guy. He does a lot for me and really cares about me. Even though we've only been officially together for a week, unofficially for a month, I can tell he does and I'm really falling for him. I hate to admit it because I really enjoyed being single (despite my rants). But I also enjoy having someone around all the time. And who knows...he might be the ONE.
1. I went on more date with other guys while still seeing the Class 5 clinger. All of them awkward and I was a terrible person and would call him afterwards to just cuddle. The more I learned about him and got to know him...I started to really like him. However, after all the SHIT I've been through with guys I was too scared to actually make it official. About 3 weeks into it though I realized I either had to end it or make it official. I made it official. He's now sitting next to me on the couch as I write this (He can't read it hahaha). HeLovesMeNot is offically NOT single. I didn't think this would happen, at least not this soon.
2. 3 days after making it official guess who I hear from???? THE BRIT. I CAN'T believe it. Only took him 5 freakin' months. But I finally have closure, I can let go and put him out of my mind. He said some pretty mean things like implying that he was angry at me for some reason but never alluded to the reason, but then also pulled at some heart strings by saying that he misses me and thinks about me a lot. I cried I'm not gonna lie. But like I said, I have closure. It's finally done and over with and I made the executive decision to cease all further contact with him because I deserve better than that and I finally have it.
3a. Okay...so some juice on THE ENEMY. I recently found out that even though The Teacher has no interest in her, he proceeded to hook up with her whilst incredibly intoxicated, thus furthering his asshole-ness. I actually feel bad for her because she really does like him and that really messed with her head...well I at least think so...I don't actually speak to her. So yeah, I feel sorry for her and hate him even more.
3b. This next story also includes her. So Friday night while hanging with the roomie, my bf (weirdddd) and roomies sister, I get a text from my Best Friend, that she found out I'm on the dating website. They found out because it turns out IRISH didn't meet THE ENEMY through a friend, but ON THE WEBSITE. WE GOT SET UP WITH THE SAME GUY! AND he LIED to me. I was SO pissed at him. AND I was incredibly embarassed that everyone knew about me being on it and it didn't help that the Teacher and his friend kept texting me about it. His friend (whom I know and am kinda friends with) was being nice about it and wanted to go egg her car with me. But the Teacher was being a total ass...espcially since I haven't talked to him since we hooked and I had to get my earrings back through my Best Friends guy. I didn't reply to the Teacher, and I told Irish he was an asshole and he should never talk to me again (okay okay, I didn't STOP talking to him even though I am dating someone...). Irish ended up unfriending myself and The ENEMY on facebook. How LAME. I thought at 26 and 28 (Irish and the The Teacher) guys were supposed to be more adult. Apparently not.
But none of that matters now, Class 5 Clinger is actually a really sweet guy. He does a lot for me and really cares about me. Even though we've only been officially together for a week, unofficially for a month, I can tell he does and I'm really falling for him. I hate to admit it because I really enjoyed being single (despite my rants). But I also enjoy having someone around all the time. And who knows...he might be the ONE.
3/12/2009
Absence.
I know I know I have not updated in a long time. A lot has happened love life wise. I shall update this weekend when I'm not totally wiped out. Tune back in by Sunday afternoon. Believe me, you'll want to because I have a lot of juice for you.
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